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20 February 2014 @ 11:44 am
Rising from the Ashes - Chapter 2(part 2)  
Amanda Gilbert scritte
Summary: "Fawkes has granted me a second chance and I won't waste it being trapped in my past nightmares. Just like a phoenix, I am reborn from the ashes of my old life and from now on, I have to forget who I used to be and really become Amanda Gilbert." Slight cross-over with HP.

Pairing: Damon/FemHarry(She's more an OC though).

Chapter 2


"Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times,

if one only remembers to turn on the light."

(Albus Dumbledore, Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban)

It was the next day, late evening to be exact, and Elena and Bonnie were handing out flyers in preparation of the event of the night, the night the comet would pass over Mystic Falls. Amanda and Caroline were on the other side of the town square, doing the same thing.

"Tonight, night of the comet! Would you like a program?" Bonnie was saying before turning towards Elena. "He didn't call, huh?"
Elena sighed and shook her head no. "Or text. But I realized we never even exchanged that stuff. We've never gotten to the texting part."
Bonnie nodded. "That's an important milestone in any relationship."
Elena agreed. "Isn't it?" She stayed silent for a second before sighing and saying. "The timing is wrong, anyway."
Bonnie frowned at her. "When is it ever right?"
Elena shook her head again. "I'm not ready, Bonnie."
Bonnie looked a little exasperated now. "Who is?"
"At least I put myself out there." Elena tried to defend herself.
"Is that what you're calling it?" Bonnie raised an eyebrow at her, obviously skeptic.
"What do you mean?" Asked Elena defensive.
"All I'm hearing is reasons why you can't." Was Bonnie's only response. Elena looked at her for a long moment before sighing. "Yeah, well, maybe I think I'm wasting my time okay?"

"Wasting your time how?" Bonnie asked, obviously not understanding her point. Elena rolled her eyes. "Come on Bonnie, you know what I mean. I'm not sure Stefan is really interested in me. Actually I don't think he wants me at all."

"Why do you think that?" Bonnie asked bewildered.

"Because until two days ago he had eyes only for my sister and didn't seem to see anyone else in front of him. Then suddenly, bam, he seems interested in me. Amanda has obviously convinced him to turn his attentions towards me. And there's also the fact that he seems not to be over his ex from what Amanda has told me, at least that's what Stefan's older brother Damon told her. I don't want to be the second choice Bonnie." Elena sighed to herself, a little discomfited.

"I don't think it's like that at all. I saw you with him Elena. He genuinely likes you. He smiles around you, thing that - let's admit it - it's something he doesn't do often. Maybe, okay, he was interested in Amanda at first, but now he had the possibility to know you a little better and I know that he likes you, that he likes spending time with you. Don't let your insecurities stop you from getting what you want."

Elena smiled at Bonnie, a little reassured but not yet ready to hope. "I don't know Bonnie. I'm scared."

Night had fallen over the town square, the time for the comet to pass over Mystic Falls was almost there. Amanda looked around at all the people gathered for the event, trying to find her sister and friends in the crowd. In that moment she noticed Damon on the other side of the street, looking at her. She was about to join him when some people walked in front of her. A moment later, when her view was free again, the place where Damon was a second ago, was now empty. Amanda shook her head, confused, then shrugged. Caroline reached her side in that moment, a some white candles in her hand. "Hey, I got some candles." Caroline gave her one and then walked away to do the same thing to the others gathered there. Amanda looked at the candle for a second, checked that nobody was looking her way and then stared at the candle with intensity. A moment later a tiny flame was burning at the top of the candle. Amanda smiled satisfied. A second later Matt walked up to her. The moment was broken and the flame went out, the wick of the candle turning white again, like the flame had never touched it in the first place. "Ehy." She smiled at him. Matt smiled back at her and returned her greeting. He lighted up the candle with his own. "Thank you." Matt nodded at her. "You're welcome." Matt walked away and Amanda went up to someone else to lighted their candle. A moment later she looked up and saw Stefan coming her way. She sighed but smiled at him. "Hi."

"Hi." Stefan repeated. He hesitated a minute then said. "Listen, I wanted to apologize for yesterday. I wasn't myself."

"It's okay. I gathered it wasn't me you were upset with."

Stefan looked surprised at that, then upset. "What Damon told you?"

"Not much. I just realized that you and him have a really tense relationship."

Stefan sighed. "Yeah. Tense." He kept silent for a second then continued, his tone determined. "Damon is not a good guy, not matter what he seems. You should stay away from him, for your own good."

Amanda widened her eyes at that and then laughed, she really couldn't help it. Noticing Stefan's offended face, she sobered instantly and apologized. "I'm sorry, I wasn't laughing at you. It's just...we had a similar conversation this morning, me and Damon I mean... whatever, it doesn't matter. I thank you for your concern Stefan but you don't need to worry about me. First of all, I'm not hanging up with Damon, we met like...twice. I barely know him. And anyway, I know how to take care of myself. You don't need to protect me".

"I'm not joking Amanda. He could be... really dangerous."

"I understand what you're saying Stefan. But I'm sorry, it's not really any of your business who I spend my time with. And I know how to defend myself if the need arise okay? Now go to Elena, she had been staring at us talking for the last ten minutes." Stefan looked at Elena and smiled, before leaving Amanda's side to join her.

"Ehy" Stefan looked at her, a happy feeling in the pit of his stomach. Maybe Amanda was right. Maybe he and Elena could be good together. Elena replied to his greeting but she seemed a little distant. Stefan lighted Elena's candle and then said "You know, that comet. . .it's been traveling across space for thousands of years. All alone."
Elena grimaced a little. "Yeah, Bonnie says it's a harbinger of evil."
Stefan shook his head. "I think it's just a ball of. . .snow and ice, trapped on a path that it can't escape. And once every 145 years, it gets to come home." He hesitated a little then continued. "I'm sorry about yesterday. That scene with my brother, I didn't want you to see that."

"You seem to spend a lot of time apologizing." Her tone was a little cold now.
"Well, I have a lot to apologize for. Yesterday, that wasn't about you, ok?" Stefan tried to explain.
"You didn't even tell me that you had a brother." Now her tone was obviously hurt.
Stefan sighed. "We're not close. It's, uh. . .it's complicated."
"Always. Damon told Amanda about your ex. Katherine. And of course she told me everything."
"What did Damon say?" Stefan asked cautious.
Elena shrugged. "Just that she broke your heart."
Stefan shook his head. "That was a long time ago."
"When you lose someone, it stays with you, always reminding you of how easy it is to get hurt."
"Elena. . ." Stefan tried to say but Elena interrupted him.
"It's OK, Stefan. I get it. You have no idea how much I get it. Complicated brother? Check. Complicated past relationships? I can understand. Too complicated to even contemplate dating? double check. It's OK. We met, and we talked, and it was epic, but. . .then the sun came up and reality set in. So. . ." Elena blew out her candle and walked away without another word.

Amanda was inside in the Grill when she noticed Elena entered, she looked upset.

"Ehy, you okay?" Amanda asked her. Elena nodded her head yes, but Amanda didn't believe her for a minute. "Has something happened with Stefan? Did you two have a fight?"

Elena looked at her and sighed. "Not really a fight just... we realized that it couldn't work between us."

Amanda looked at her astonished. "What? When you realized that? You're crazy about him Elena. Why are you giving up?"

"I'm not giving up. It's just that... it's too complicated right now okay? And maybe what I need is something simple, without complications."

"You mean something that is not love right? Because love is always complicated and messy, you realized that right?"

Elena shook her head but didn't answer her. The moment was interrupted by Jeremy and Tyler. The two of them were obviously arguing, about Vicky again. Amanda and Elena made their way besides them. Caroline and Bonnie were already near them, probably curious about what was going on.

"Hey, has anyone seen Vicky?" Jeremy asked them. Amanda shook her head, she had no idea where Vicky could be.
"You're her stalker. You tell us." And that was Tyler. Amanda rolled her eyes, Tyler was such a douche.
"I can't find her." Jeremy continued, ignoring Tyler. He was obviously worried.
"She probably found somebody else to party with. Sorry, pill pusher, I guess you've been replaced." Tyler continued.
"What's with the pill pusher?" Elena asked Jeremy with a suspicious tone.
"Ask him." Tyler answered.
Jeremy shook his head at her. "You wanna do this right now?"
"Are you dealing?" Elena again.

"Elena, maybe now is not the right time..." Amanda tried to interject but Elena ignored her.
"She's never gonna go for you." Tyler goaded Jeremy.
Jeremy looked at Tyler with a slight smirk. "She already did. Over and over and over again."
Amanda widened her eyes. "Okay, too much information Jeremy."

"Yeah, right." Tyler said, but it was obvious he kind of believed Jeremy's words.
"You slept with Vicki Donovan? I mean, Vicki Donovan slept with you?" Caroline asked with her usual tact.
"There's no way." Tyler shook his head.
"And I didn't even have to force her into it." Jeremy said with fake nonchalance.
"What the hell is he talking about, Ty?" Matt asked, having obviously heard Jeremy's words.
"Nothing, man, just ignore him, he's a punk." Tyler said, defending himself. Amanda looked at him with disgust. It was obvious he had a guilty conscience. What Jeremy said was probably partly true.
Matt shook his head. "You know what, how about all of you shut up and help me find my sister?"
"Yeah, you're right." Amy agreed.

"We'll check the back." Bonnie said, leaving the Grill with Caroline.
"I'll check the square." Matt said before leaving too. "I'll come with you." Jeremy tried to say but Elena immediately stopped him.
"Oh, no, no, no. You are coming with me." Together, the three of them left the Grill in search of Vicky. "So that's your game now, dealing?"
"I'm not dealing." Jeremy said with an exasperated tone.

"Elena calm down. You really believe Tyler, really? That guy is a complete dick besides being a bully."

Jeremy shoot her a grateful look but Elena ignored her, again.
"Look, I'm sick of the tough love speech, Jer. It's clearly having no impact."
"You and Amanda and Jenna, between the lot of you. Enough already!"
"We can stop if you want. Send you to a therapist where you'll be forced to deal with it or to rehab where you'll sit in group and tell some stranger how you let your life fall apart. Or you could talk to me."

"I vote for none of the above." Was Jeremy's only answer. He left without another word.

"Okay, Elena, don't you think you're slightly exaggerating now?" Amanda tried to make her see reason.

"No, I don't think so. And why were you defending him? Don't you see that he's destroying himself piece by piece?"

"I know that he's having a hard time accepting the fact the our parents are dead. We're all trying to accept our loss in our own way. Jeremy's just trying to ignore the pain, he's trying not to think. I can understand that. What we need to do is be there for him when he's ready to talk. And of course I know that you're trying to protect him, I'm doing the same thing. I tried to talk to him before about the drugs. But the drugs are not the problem. The problem is his pain. He's suffering and he's shutting out everyone around him. We need to reach him without attacking him at every turn. He needs to trust us. And believing Tyler's words over his is not a good way to gain his trust."

Elena sighed. "You're right. I was really over the top. But I'm worried. I barely recognize him anymore."

"I know. I'm worried too." Amanda kept silent for a second, thinking but then said. "Come on, let's trying to find Vicky."

Stefan stared at Damon with worry. What had just happened with Vicky has proved to him once and for all that Damon was once again trying to ruin his life. When he came back to Mystic Falls he really thought that he could start over, forget about his past and his sins, meet Amanda and try to live a normal life in his home town. But you couldn't start over when you had a brother intent on destroying your life over and over again. Add the fact that Amanda wanted nothing to do with him and everything he imagined he could have when he returned to Mystic Falls was now nothing but a pipe dream. He had breathed a sigh of relief when Damon had compelled Vicky again after having convinced her that Stefan was the one who attacked her but he knew perfectly well that Damon hadn't done it because he was feeling guilty. Damon simply didn't want to end his game too soon, he wasn't done playing with Stefan. And his game would have ended if the Council had found out that he was a vampire. Stefan would have been killed and Damon would have to renounce his vengeance, think that he couldn't allow. It was nothing more than that. He just wished he knew what Damon was really planning, beside making his life hell of course.

"It's good to be home. Think I might stay a while. This town could use a bit of a wake-up call, don't you think?" Damon's words brought him back to the present. His older brother was smirking, obviously satisfied by what had transpired between them.
"What are you up to, Damon?" Stefan asked directly, even if he knew he wouldn't get an answer.
"That's for me to know and for you to. . .dot dot dot." Damon stopped speaking for a second before adding. "Give Elena my best. I'll see to Amanda myself. I think she likes me, don't you think?" Stefan glared at him at that and Damon laughed. "Oh don't be jealous Stefan. You have the other Gilbert twin all to yourself, don't you? Even if we both know it's not the one you're really interested in." Damon smirked some more before saying. "Smart girl Amanda. Really perceptive. She reminds so much of Katherine. And I'm not talking about her physical appearance... Well, I best go now. See you around little brother." And in an instant, he was gone.

"Ugh, it's just so much drama. Ever notice how the druggies are the biggest attention whores?" Caroline was saying. "Yeah." Bonnie was not really listening to her, just pretending to for her friend's sake. They were again at the Grill, the two of them like two nights ago, sitting around a table near the door.
The moment was interrupted by Stefan Salvatore, Elena's possible boyfriend. "Excuse me. Hi." He was always so polite.
"Hi." Bonnie answered with a smile.
"Um, have you guys seen Elena?"

"I think she went home. I'm gonna give you Elena's cell number and her email. She is big on texting, and you can tell her... 'I said so'". She scribbled Elena's number and email on a napkin before offering it to Stefan.
"Thank you." Stefan said. In that moment their hands touched and Bonnie shivered, a cold, empty feeling like anything she had ever felt before making her way inside her.
"You ok?" Stefan asked her, bringing her back to the present. Bonnie withdrew her hand form Stefan's and got up.
"What happened to you?" She asked before shaking her head, confused and upset. "That's so rude. I'm sorry. Excuse me." She left without a moment thought, leaving two very bewildered people staring after her.

Amanda couldn't believe Elena had left her there without a drive home just to go to Stefan's house. She had just left the Grill when she had noticed that the car was not parked where she had left it. And then she had received a message from her sister, saying that she had taken the car because she wanted to talk to Stefan. So now the only way to reach home was to walk, alone, in the dark, with wild animals - or vampires - probably roaming the town. 'Thanks a lot Elena. If they try to kill me, I'll blame you!'

There were times when she lamented the loss of her powers, now was one of those times. If she had still been a witch, she could have apparated directly in her room without breaking a sweat, instead she had to walk. She had been walking for about five minutes when she noticed a blue Camaro approaching her side. It was none other than Damon Salvatore - a possible vampire if her suspicions were correct -.

"Need a ride?" He asked her with his trademark smirk.

"It depends." She answered with a smile, hiding the fact that she was actually being serious. "Will you try to kill me?"

"Why do you think I'll try to kill you?" He was still smirking but his eyes were cautious.

"Oh, I don't know. You and me, alone in your car, nobody knowing where I am..."

"You and me together in my car, alone... it makes me think of other, more pleasurable, things to do with you thank kill you." He said suggestively, doing this thing with his eyes that would have appeared ridiculous on anyone else but that on his face looked sexy. Amanda laughed at that, rolling her eyes a little, before accepting the ride he was offering and climbing in his car.

"So, how come you don't have your car?" Damon asked her, as soon as she was safely ensconced in his car.

"Elena stole the car to go to the Boarding House to talk to Stefan." Amanda explained.

"Oh, sounds serious! Troubles in paradise already?" His tone was suddenly mocking. It happened every time Damon talked about his brother. Amanda didn't ask why though, she didn't want to pry, well, not yet at least.

"Actually I think they'll patch things up soon enough." She answered, sure of what she was saying.

"And what makes you think that?" Damon asked her, with a curious look her way.

"Because I know my sister. This evening she was trying to convince herself that leaving Stefan was the right thing, that it wasn't the right time, that she wasn't ready, but at the end of the day what drove her was simply fear. But she needed just a little nudge to give her relationship with Stefan a try. I gave her that little nudge and I think that was enough to convince her that it was worth it."

"And you think it is? Worth it?" Damon asked her, an intrigued expression on his face.

"Love always is." Amanda said with conviction. Damon looked intently at her for a long second before nodding almost imperceptibly with his head, silently agreeing with her statement.

The two of them didn't talk anymore until Damon had suddenly parked his car in front of her house.

"How did you know where I live?" Amanda asked him, suddenly realizing that she didn't give him any directions to reach her house.

"It's a little town. And I've lived in Mystic Falls before, some years ago. I know where the Gilbert family lives."

"Right." She hesitated a moment, about to say something else before changing her mind. "Thanks for the ride then Damon." She ended up saying then before leaving Damon's car. "See you around then."

"Let's hope it's soon, Miss Gilbert." Damon smirked at her before waving his hand slightly. He started up the engine again until he was out of the driveway. Amanda watched him go, a slight frown on her face. Then she shook her head and went inside.

She got up the stairs when she heard noises coming from Jeremy's room. Maybe now was a good time to talk to her little brother.

"Jer?" She called aloud. When she went into his room though, there's no Jeremy waiting inside, it's Jenna.

"No, it's me, the hypocrite patrol." Her aunt answered.
"What are you doing?" Amanda asked her curiously.

"I've become my worst nightmare. The authority figure who has to violate a 15-year-old's privacy." Jenna was searching inside Jeremy's drawer when she noticed there was something inside one of his socks. Pot, to be precise. "Jackpot. I see the hiding places haven't gotten any more creative."
"What brought this on?"
"Your ass-hat of a history teacher shamed me good yesterday."
Amanda nodded in understanding. "You got Tannered. Been there."
"'Discover the impossible, Ms. Summers.' Got it. Thanks. Like I didn't know I was screwing up."
"You're not screwing up, Aunt Jenna."
Her aunt shook her head, dejected. "Yes, I am. You know why? Because I'm not her. She made everything look so easy. You know, high school, marriage, having you. I can't do it. I'm gonna say or do the wrong thing, and he's gonna get worse, and it's gonna be my fault. It's impossible."
"This is just the fear talking. You're a little scared, that's all. But you're not alone Aunt Jenna. Me and Elena. We'll help, in any way we can, okay?"

Caroline had just left the Grill and was walking to her car, the parking lot seemed deserted. She suddenly heard something and stopped. She looked around her but she didn't noticed anything. She resumed walking until she reached her car. She heard another noise and the keys in her hand dropped on the ground. She picked them up from the ground and when she stood up she came face to face with the handsome man she had seen the day before yesterday at the Grill.

"Oh... whoa." She exclaimed, a little startled.
The man smirked at her. "Sorry. Didn't mean to scare you."
Caroline shook her head. "No, it's fine. Um. . .I was hoping I'd see you again." She said sincerely.
The man smirked again. "I know." He answered cockily.
"Cocky much?" Caroline asked with a giggle.
He smiled like at her, like a cat that ate the canary. "Very much." Caroline smiled coyly in return.

Elena had just parked outside the Salvatore Boarding House. She got out of her car and reached the high double doors at the entrance. She rang the bell and waited a few seconds. Stefan answered the door almost immediately.

"Hi." Stefan greeted her with a smile.
Elena smiled in return. "Hey."
"Would you like to come in?" Stefan invited immediately.
Elena shook her head, no. "The comet's actually this way." She gestured with her hand towards the porch outside. Elena reached the porch and Stefan followed her.
"Sorry for barging in. Especially after earlier." Elena immediately apologized, a little embarrassed.
"No, no. I'm glad you're here. The way we left things... I didn't like it." Stefan said with a slight frown. The stood side by side, without saying anything for a few seconds. Elena took a deep breath, trying to find the courage to speak. "See, the thing is, I got home tonight planning on doing what I always do, write in my diary, like I have been since my mom gave me one when I was 10. It's where I get everything out, everything I'm feeling. It all goes in this little book that I hide on the second shelf behind this really hideous ceramic mermaid. But then I realized that I'd just be writing things that I should probably be telling you."
Stefan looked at her intently. "What would you write?"
Elena sighed. "I would write. . .'Dear diary, today I convinced myself it was ok to give up. Don't take risks. Stick with the status quo. No drama, now is just not the time.' But then I remembered my talk with Bonnie and Amanda and I realized that they were right. My reasons aren't reasons, they're excuses. All I'm doing is hiding from the truth, and the truth is that. . .I'm scared, Stefan. I'm scared that if I let myself be happy for even one moment that. . .the world's just going to come crashing down, and I. . . don't know if I can survive that. Especially because I'm not sure if what you actually feel for me is real or if I am just your second choice."

Stefan sighed at that. "You're right. I can't certainly deny that when I came here, I was actually interested in Amanda." He hesitated a little before continuing. "But then I talked with Amanda yesterday and I realized that she was right. I don't actually know her. I think I had convinced myself that I liked her and I ended up ignoring what was right in front of me." He looked at her then. "I haven't even had a real conversation with her. But with you, we clicked, from the very first moment. I like talking with you, I like spending time with you. And I'd really, really like for us to give it a try. If you agree, of course." Elena smiled at him, a big, happy smile, for the first time since her parents died. "Yes, I'd like that." She looked at him, realizing that they were closer that she thought they were. When did they get so close? A moment later, they were kissing. And it was the best kiss of her life.